At the very first sight:chapter3

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Whenever I'm starting to think about him..i just..just lost my mind and i fall in memories that i had  felt.i never think that i had such an experience. because i was like lepsima..i don't have any dream beyond books.like every teen i had also followers. but i had my control since i need to achieve some big.i need to show to the world that im not a looser,and make realize them that no girl from a broken family become idiot. i think by the help of God i Did it...day by day i learned to hide my tears,learned to hide my tears within the pillow.But no one in my friends  never know  about the real broken me,and whqt is inside in my mind.
Once upon a time at the evening i thought that was a Wednesday it was an unforgettable day fortunately. but also miserable whenever i think about it .sessions are over the day,i took my notes my friend waiting outside the classroom. someone enters into the room,i just raise my head and look at him.He is just starring at me he is nervous too.i doubted and ask him "what?"then he replied that he want to tell me about something. then i said "please?"he said "i love you".from my 12th age onwards whenever someone propose me o felt like i lost my legs and started to  shivering and can hear the bombardment of heart beats whoever standing around me. infact i feel the same at that time. but with all my courage i said "not interested".then he just said that he was interested.
If you don't tell anyone I'm gonna tell you that I'm not but i never let that assumption goaway.Because i need to achieve some big and i wanna show my life as an ideal  life.

I reached home and she is starring at me and shouted me and asked "where do you have been ?good for nothing. clean the toilet and wash my cloth,cook something for us."she gave me the long to do list.with  a heave i said "yes mummy" she asked me to call her mummy. i remember my mom with tears.somehow the darkness stay away from me.

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